If you could do it again, would you? What would you do differently?

Life is hard and we only have one path. We don't know what lies ahead. We can only hope we make the right decisions and move forward. It's all we have with our experiences to guide us. But what if time travel was possible, and we could go back? Would you? What would you change if you could?

Before I was published, it was all I could think about. As time passed, the idea slowly faded. Today, as much as I would like to, I know my experiences (good and bad) resulted in the person I am now. That makes the decision even harder for me because I don't know if changing my past would make me a better person, wife, grandmother, or writer.

I made terrible decisions and I screwed up a lot of things. But without those mistakes, I wouldn't be who I am. Yes, I regret them and wish they didn't happen. I think we've all been there. The things that are "done to us" mold us. Our decisions mold us. We may not see it in the moment, but each tiny part of where we are, where we're going, and all those choices add up. Sometimes, those choices are needed to make us stronger. I know I needed them.

Today, I may not go back in time and make those changes, but I would still want to go back and be a "visitor" to see those things. For instance; I miss my maternal grandmother something fierce. I lost her shortly after my first was born. I like to think I'm something like her--she showed me more love than anyone else did, accepted me for who I was, and supported my decision to be a writer. Though she never read anything I wrote, she always said I could do it. I know she's watching me from Heaven with a smile. I know she loves my husband because she did then. And I know she'd be proud of me for sticking to my guns about writing. It was all I ever wanted to do. She didn't like the idea everyone else treated me so badly and often "yelled" at them for it. If I could go back, I'd visit her and watch her secretly. I would whisper in her ear how thankful I am for her love. I would shed more tears than I could count but it would be worth it. Of course, leaving would be the hard part so maybe it's best that we can't go back in time.

Thankfully, our memories give us the ability to travel back in time, to revisit those moments in our lives. I can go back and remember all those times when she had my back. I can remember all those times I spent the night at her house. I can remember my grandfather and revisit all those times when I was his girl. All those drives and breakfasts together. I can go back and remember how good it felt when they returned home from Florida. I hated seeing them leave for the winter but my heart sung when spring came. Maybe that's the real reason it's my favorite season.

So, if you had the choice, would you change your past? What would you change if you could? Would you leave it as is and just visit? Reply below and share your story. Thank you!!!